DEAR POPPI,

this is for my popi.

 

you know, every night I cry for you.

WHY ARENT YOU HERE?

why is it that you do not love me popi?

why did you bring me here if you weren't going to love me?

 

I want to hate you.

"HATE YOU!"

but I cant.

MAN I LOVE YOU.

:'(

 

I wish you were here.

I bet you wont even be to my wedding.

I wont have a daddy to walk me down the ile

I wont have a daddy to give me off to a man who I will one day love.

I wont have my popi to dance with me when its time for me to have my last dance with you

 

maybe my life reaks because you never wanted to be here

daddy why?

why am I so cold?

why must I shiver BECAUSE OF YOU!?

why do you hate me so much,

AND WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO-

 

I have no idea.

I miss kissing you on the cheek daddy.

I MISS I LOVE YOU1

I LOVE YOU 2

I LOVE YOU 3

I LOVE YOU 4.......

 

yes, I remember.

I see it when I dream.

US!

 

im sorry daddy that I mean absolutely NOTHING to you!

im sorry that near one of us does,

im sorry for being the biggest most first mistake of your life...

 

I wish you'd never brought me here

FATHER, THIS IS HELL.

 

TOTAL HELL!

 

THIS IS YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!

 

I HATE YOU

 

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



where i stand, not alone

 

WHERE I STAND, NOT ALONE

 

once upon a time, I was strong.

that was until I was birthed into this cold lonesome world!

no more will I have to stand independent.

 

the war is over.

I AM FREE!

 

it was the very moment that I saw her face that I knew I was in great hands.

she said unto me, "Hello Zanderland, I am your mother. welcome to your new home."

she was beautiful.

her arms that held me were so warm.

if only it had last forever.

 

the limbs of my troth had soon began to sprout.

no longer was I small enough to be held.

the world around me had shrunk right before my eyes.

 

now I am to do for myself.

"No!

mother, why are you making me do this?

can you no longer carry for me?"

 

I feel like a little soldier again.

life is like a book of responsibilities.

no matter where she puts you,

you, yourself has to put it together.

 

life-

she sits me here to think.

I am not alone.

never will I be alone!

you are here stuck with me.

helping one another.

even if we are not aware.



i do not wish to be alone anymore

the truth

I have nothing to say.

the truth

I do not why the world see me as a monster.

sometimes

I feel like no one cares.

sometimes

I cry because I'm scared

scared of my own life

 

why do you judge me world?

what have I done to you?

PLEASE!

STOP THE SCREAMING AT ME!

I've done nothing!

 

from my soul with in, I dismiss you world! go! go away!

 

now it is at peace that I lay

right upon a dark shadow.

I sit alone in a cold zone of emptiness.

here I can smile.

there isn't anyone here to disturb my peace.

 

I write to you a letter world.

oh how I miss you so. here, my happiness has come to an end.

please take me back.

 

the darkness here has stolen my health

as if it was a thief.

this emptiness is more worse than hunger.

I do not wish to be alone anymore.

for I have learned that

I need you.